i suppose i let a part of me, die.

i became unfamiliar with words
& feelings.
somehow, colors were less bright.

this has happened for too long.

so,
i sat down on the floor.
i laid out everything i could remember.
nouns, people, places, smells, bits & pieces
here and there.

and i did my best.
i stretched out my arms, leaned forward
and
i pulled them close to my chest

i sat there, eyes closed,
until they seeped back in.

until fall smelled like fall
and blue was the same blue
and when i rolled the words around,
feeling their edges, their straight lines.
i knew i was at home. finally.

so i will keep going.
i will start today, all over again.
and thats ok.